Positive moments.

Whirlsie posed an interesting post prompt this week – what’s positive that I’m puling out of the 12wbt this round? Have I started something new in my life? Am I doing something different to the past?

I’m not sure that what’s working for me this time around is actually related to the program at all, I think to be honest it’s a fresh perspective in my life born of having reached a new bottom emotionally late last year.

I can’t sustain living like I used to. So I’m just not going to try anymore. I’ve been on one diet or another non stop since 2006. Some dropped weight really fast, some just malnourished me and I ended up sick. None of them were lifestyle changes.

Previously I would have run into the 12 weeks with an all or nothing mindset and really chastised myself if I did ANYTHING wrong. Very much an ‘oh no I’m off the wagon, may as well write off the whole day’ approach to things. But it doesn’t help me, it doesn’t work in the long run, and I know that it’s unsustainable.

There are a lot of people on the forums who seem to be approaching the food and exercise with the militant verve that I’ve used in the past – and I’m watching them burn out each Wednesday weigh-in and then flog themselves on a Thursday in the forums.

It just doesn’t work.

So what am I doing that IS finally working?

I’ve been thinking a lot about this over the past few weeks. I’ve lost a steady amount between 100-700g per week since January and that hasn’t happened on any of my previous ‘programs’.

Historically I lose 1kg+ some weeks, yo-yo upwards with little gains for the next several weeks, then I’d really knuckle down and drop a large number again… and around and around I’d go until I reached my ‘goal’ weight for that particular diet.

This time I don’t really have a fixed goal weight. I’ve put 65kg in the 12wbt tracker, but on some of my trackers I’m looking at 70kg, and in others there’s not a goal weight at all.

I just want to be in a ‘healthy’ weight range. I want to be fit. And I guess most of all I want to be comfortable in my own skin.

SO that’s my positive. The realisation that it doesn’t have to be All or Nothing, the knowledge that if I concentrate on keeping up the consistency and sustainable changes in my lifestyle as a whole I will eventually find myself at ‘goal’ (whatever that ends up being) without having fought myself the whole way there.

Past Bec was very unkind to herself in a lot of respects. It’s sad for her. Future Bec doesn’t have to be miserable, only present Bec can make sure that happens.

And when it comes right down to it, only present Bec matters right now.

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